2015's End

It's December 31st! There are only 23 hours and a half till the year is done! I always get excited when the year is over. I know technically it doesn't change anything more then a normal day of the year, but it's the time when everyone is just happy and enjoys the start of a new year.

I had a really nice Christmas with my family and spent the week with them in Eger. It was nice being home even though I was studying most of the time. We all sat and unwrapped presents twice, as when my cousins came we did it again and I ate so much good food, which I totally love doing! Everything was really nice.

Even though I had some really stressful moments this year I couldn't have wished for anything different. I had some major big things happen to me this year for which I am very happy for:
-I got into university! ---which is by far the best thing I could have asked for this year
-Even though I didn't get to travel half as much as I would have liked to I still got to go to Scotland for 2 days
-I met some really amazing people and made some awesome friends
-I moved to Budapest and now don't have to travel half an hour or more into the city for anything
And:
-Barcelona's football team stayed the champions this year, not to mention Hungary got into the Euro Cup

Plus many more awesome things

In general, even though I may not always show it, I am really happy with where my life has lead me. Yes I miss working in the kindergarten but in 2 and a half years I'll be done with university and can go back to doing what I love.

So yeah...Happy New Years to you all. May you have a wonderful year ahead!

Existence

Of course I'll hurt you, of course you'll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence. 

---Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, from The Little Prince

Writing

I miss those days when I would get on my blog, start writing, and in 5-10 minutes have a nicely written post. Now-a-days I open my blog, start writing something, get stuck, leave it open in a new tab for 3-4 days, and then either eventually write something else much shorter and on a completely different topic then the original idea, or exit the tab and abandon writing on my blog until the inspiration hits and the circle starts again. I don't know if it has to do with the fact that I am older and don't want to sound like a dumb little girl writing, and am therefore more self conscious about what comes through and somehow block my thoughts, or the fact that I always feel stressed and can't just 'let go and let it out'. Maybe it is a little of both. I was hoping that this university course I am doing would help me get that 'flow' back in my writing, and maybe it still will, but it is something that I really want to get back. It feels nice to just let my thoughts out on paper. I probably lost the practice and maybe that is why is it harder, but I'll keep on trying and get it back eventually. Until then I will try to keep this blog updated a bit more regularly.