I never thought I'd have to say goodbye to my sibling forever, I always assumed you'd all outlive me, or at least stay alive until I was an old lady. I don't even know where to go on from here, it just hurts all the time. I really miss you, and I wish I could have done something, anything, to avoid this. I'm really sorry, really! They say that the pain will subside with time, but I don't know how it'll be right to let it. I know I will have to, but even thinking about that freaks me out. You had so much ahead of you, and you couldn't see it. I know you're in a better place, and that I'll see you again someday, it's just gonna be hella weird getting used to the next 45+ years without having you around. Whenever I see you in a dream it makes me so happy, I hope you keep appearing in them from time to time, because I don't think I could live without that. I know I never really said it, but I really love you. Hope you found what you're looking for out there.
