Nem Adom Fel -Dance Group

Last Sunday the dance group I was in did a performance. I have to say it was the most fun I've had since I've moved to Budapest! 

This are the girls I dance with

The audience.....

Anyway since I was only dancing for a month I learned 7 of the dances and the rest they did without me, but I had a great time, talked to people, danced and enjoyed myself. 

I hope I'll have more great experiences like this soon.

Anyway I have to study now

---Nat

Hello December

I can't believe it's already December. So much has happened this year and in just 1 month it will be over. At the beginning of this year on January 3rd I visited Budapest as a tourist and thought it was a nice place but never even imagined myself living here. And just 5 months later I moved to Budapest (well a small town close by). I'm really excited about the rest of this year. Next Friday it's St. Nicholas Day and Santa will come to the Kindergarten. It's so cute how excited the kids are and I can't wait to see the looks on their faces when he actually does come. Also this weekend the dance group I'm in will perform, I am a bit awkward about it but you know it's something different that I'm doing, and I love that I'm putting myself out there even if it's not in such a big way. I think I'm doing great, sure I still get hit with negative thoughts and feel sorry about myself from time to time, but I'm doing my best to fight it and how you deal with your problems says a lot about you. So I'm trying to let it make me a stronger person.

Some guy once told me: “good things end to make way for better things to come”  I thought a bit how that quote applied to my life with everything going on right now, and I realized it's really true. Like I loved it in Manila but when the time came to leave even though I still miss parts of it I knew it was for the best, and things are so much better now. If I wouldn't have left I would never be here working and going towards my future. I'm really excited to see how things will play out in the future. It's really weird thinking how I will probably never 'move back in' with my family, like next summer I will stay there for a month or 2 but I will never actually permanently live there again as far as I know. --I mean I never know what could happen in my life-- part of me just wishes I could go back there, life is so much easier when you have someone taking care of you and buying your food and stuff. There comes a time in everyone's' life when they just have to spread their wings and try things out for themselves. But at the same time it's part of the excitement! Plus at least for the next 7 months they're just a 3 hour trip away and that's not that far. 

    Oh and last weekend Anita visited me and we did some pictures    

Well I wrote a nice long post and didn't even get around to telling a lot of things which are happening in my life. I guess that's a good thing. I'll leave you with this for now and maybe another time I'll write about the rest. 

--Nat

Snowing + 30 Days

It snowed today, all day, it's still snowing now. I can't believe it's already winter, when will it be warm again?! So far the snow hasn't settled and unless it snows all night by tomorrow it will be like it never happened. I don't really know how I feel about the snow this year. Maybe I'm just accepting it, because hating takes to much energy and I have other things to focus on.  

You can't really see the snow but this is the picture I took of it with my phone. 

Also there are only 30 days left till Christmas :)
This songs playing on repeat like it has for the last 2 years.

Bye

Constant Companion

I want to be a very present companion, counselor, and help to you---not merely someone you know of, or someone you met once but rarely think about or talk to, or even an adviser that you consult from time to time when you have a problem or need to make an important decision. I want to be a constant, loving presence.

I want to communicate with you personally and directly, and not in a distant, formal, or mental sort of way, but heart to heart. I want us to commune as intimates would, to talk things over, to reach decisions together, and to sometimes communicate without saying a word. I want to develop a bond of love between us that you've never experienced with anyone else and can't even imagine.

Learning to converse freely with Me, like learning to be natural, open, honest, and trusting in your communications with any friend, is something that comes with time and practice. It may feel awkward or even seem like work at first, learning to come into My presence and recognize My voice, but if you will do your part by making that effort, I will speak to you. I may give you ideas or solutions or answers to your questions, or I may give you a feeling of peace and well-being, or I may simply tell you how special you are to Me and how much I enjoy being with you. I'm full of surprises, so you'll never know what to expect, but this I promise: I will never disappoint you!

--Jesus

Anniversary

So today officially I have had my blog for 4 years! I know I may not have been the most faithful in posting on it regularly but I have posted at least once a month and for 4 years... and well I can say I'm pretty proud of myself.
I still remember back when I started my blog, everyone was super into that 'blogging' phase so I started it also, now only 2 of my friends keep up with their blogs.
It's funny to see where these last 4 years have brought me, and how much I have changed along with how different my life is. 4 years ago I would never have believed that I would end up being a kindergarten teacher. Actually I hated taking care of kids back then.
I really don't have anything to complain about though, I've had a great life. I got to travel a lot, and I love seeing places.
Next year I will be moving out of Hungary. Part of me is really excited, but the rest is nervous, starting anew in a place where I don't know anyone, or the people I know can't help me. But God always works things out and so I just have to trust him and if it's his will for my life then it will work, if not then he will always open another door for me.
I've actually been really happy this week, laughed a lot and I feel inspired about life. I'm surprised that I'm doing so well. I learned that you are made a lot stronger when you get up after life knocks you down. When you have a hardship it's easy to just wallow, to feel terrible about yourself and not want to fight, but when you fight you actually recover a lot faster and then you wonder why you even let yourself stay down for 5 minutes.
I think I've babbled everything out for my 4 year anniversary post.......
Oh ya and I started dance classes last week, my legs still hurt from all the moving, but that's what I love about it :) I feel like I'm finally getting my lazy ass up and doing something.

Breakup

Well I'm still in the 'ripped into pieces' stage, don't know if and when I'll get better. Probably never. Actually I never thought this would happen. I'll be honest with you, I will not sound like a whinny baby anymore. I've cried enough and now I think it's time to suck it up. It doesn't mean it won't hurt or that I won't cry anymore, but it means that I have to grow up. Break ups happen, and it sucks when you're still frikin' in love with the person when they break up with you. But such is life. I wish we could still be friends, and maybe one day I will write you and tell you that, I promised not to write you, but you broke a promise also....it'll just take me a while to get over my pride before I write you. People tell me not to, but I don't have to go by what anyone says. I'm an adult now, I may not want to be or even accept that, but it's not a choice and so as one I have to act like one and make my own decisions. I don't have the guts to ever say this to you, and so you will never know, but you were my life. I depended on you way to much, and now I know where I have gone wrong, but I'm going to the Philippines this Christmas and my ticket is non-refundable... why can't I just stay with you there, we can have closure, we didn't have that and I NEED that. I really do, but then again I don't, I need closure on our relationship, but true friends NEVER ditch on their friends no matter what. I don't that's for sure, people have ditched on me and now it happens yet again, but I don't. Friendship is super valuable to me, and without it I don't even know the meaning of life. I guess I'm one of the few people who still values friendship these days, and I'm lucky I have friends who still do. I thought you did, but I guess this is different. So goodbye, I hope we can still be friends eventually, in the mean time I'll take time to heal.

-Nat

19.10.2013

So here's a junky picture of the moon, it looked super big and yellow so I wanted to take a picture of it for my blog but it looks super tiny on the picture.
I had a good day today. Met up with some friends and had a pretty great time. I'm realizing there's lots of possibilities for me here but I just need to put myself out there. Some things are coming together already.

I have had 'writers block' for a really long time..I know it sounds really lame for me to say that since I'm in no way a writer. But before I used to be able to just sit in front of my computer and write my blog and subjects would flow out for me to write about, now when I try to update I get nothing even if I already had a whole post in my head beforehand.

I'm going to have a week vacation at the end of this month and it'll be nice to go home and have things like they used to be. Funny how when I had things like that I hated it, and now I miss it. I guess that's how life is, you don't appreciate it until you don't have it anymore. Well I don't want to go back and live there I just miss the company and people around.

It just hit me how sad I am about A Rocket To The Moon breaking up, I really loved that band and I won't be able to ever see them live now. I was thinking of looking up if they were going to come out with a new album and then I remembered that they never will :( Whyyyy!!! At least they still have their old songs for me to listen to and love.

R.I.P. A Rocket To The Moon  --- you are missed.

Tuesday Post

Bleh, my mind is a muddled mess right now. I've done about everything I could to help me think it through. I even went jogging (which I haven't done in over a year and a half) I think my last resort is sleep but it's not even 9 yet and my body clock doesn't let me sleep till at least 10 unless I'm sick or super over tired. I'm not unhappy just a bit messed up. I'm not to sure what's going on with me. Anywayyy..... my jog was pretty nice, ok I'm not a huge fan of jogging, but it was nice to be out and listen to music and go somewhere you never been before. I discovered there's a playground not to far from where I live. I know that's not really useful information for me, but I should at least know my own neighborhood.
How I Met Your Mother (the best tv series ever) has been coming out for a few weeks now, they come out on Monday and I'm able to get them every Tuesday...so basically Tuesday's are really awesome because I get off work, go to my room and get it. Then have a good 20 minutes of laughing. If you don't watch it you really should, it's already on the 9th (and last) season so if you start now you won't have to wait as long as I do for the parts to come out. It is really worth your time.
I kind of have cramps, I'm waiting for them to go away.
Oh and highlight of my life at the moment......

I'M GOING TO THE PHILIPPINES FOR CHRISTMAS!!!

I am soo excited, I actually thought I'd never go back there. I won't be there for long as I have work to get back to but I will enjoy the time I have to the fullest.

I'll leave you with this verse:

Family Day

Today we had family day at the kindergarten, I didn't really know if I was looking forward to it as all the other teachers thought it was to cold and to early in the year for family day. I didn't say much but instead decided to wait and see. I had to stay half an hour longer at work because of family day but I didn't mind as long as I could get my shopping done and be home before 5:30. So around 3:00 the parents started arriving, and the sun came out, it was probably warmer then it was all week this afternoon and the kids who's parents showed up seemed to be having loads of fun and the parents also. It was actually really nice, I had a little boy crying on my lap most of the time so I didn't really participate in anything until he discovered the food and the crying stopped so I went about taking pictures of the games. I ended up having to stay 45 minutes later then I expected and was annoyed that I wouldn't have everything done in time.

Finally everyone left and I started making my way down the road to the shop which is about half an hour walk away, I really didn't feel like walking all that way but since I didn't have much choice I tried not to think about it. Before I even walked 5 minutes one of the kids dad's drove by and offered to drive me to the shop, it was completely out of his way and it made me feel really happy. On the way home even though the walk was up hill I didn't care and just felt really happy, I know it wasn't much for him to drive me, but it got me thinking about how God always knows how to make your day, and how I shouldn't let small things get me down because when I am positive he can do these small favors for me which really make me happy and feel loved by him. I got home half an hour later then I had hoped but since I didn't have anything to this evening I was fine with it. And I guess I learned something good from my shopping trip. It's finally weekend and I'm content.

Well I normally don't make posts about my day like this, but today really stood out to me for some reason so I thought a post would do it justice.

On Complaining

Recently I've been listening to stuff on how your words affect your life. It was talking about how complaining is an insult to God even if you aren't complaining about him, anything you complain about is his creation. And it got me thinking about a lot of things. The audios went on to say that there's a difference between telling someone your problems and complaining. People can talk about their problems and then try to find a solution But I've realized that most of us now-a-days don't try to look for the solution. We enjoy the idea of people feeling sorry for us so when we talk about our problem we make it a bigger deal then it really is. And when I thought of that I realized that's what I've been doing for a while. I have a really good situation and actually I have my dream job but I still complain a lot. Things go so well for me, yes maybe I don't have the ideal friend situation, but maybe if I spent less time complaining and I got off my ass and did something about it I wouldn't have this problem. I am really going to make an effort to stop complaining and be happy. I can be happy regardless of the situation I am in. There are times I get lonely and that's the hardest part I guess, but I have friends online who I enjoy chatting/skyping with and I'm really lucky to have them. And I should focus on that until something better comes along. Also I can go out there and meet people. I have to get rid of my shyness at some point, it's never gonna leave on its own. My main problem is that I forget, when I start complaining I don't think about how I decided that I would stop, then when I remember later I feel bad. I need to find some way that this can stick into my head until it's a habit. It takes about 6 weeks to form a habit, so let's see how I'm doing in 6 weeks?
I'll get back to this later. For now I'm gonna leave it at this. Bye and goodnight!

September Update

Here's a little update on what's been going on. I love my job, the kids are so cute, and at times they drive me insane, but at least it makes my days eventful. I'm getting used to my living situation, it's still hard, but I'm doing ok and that's what I'm focusing on right now. I actually feel like all the worries I had with not being good enough to teach the kids were so useless, as it's really easy. Of course I still have a lot to learn, and have many points I can improve on, but I'm doing better then I thought I would.

Last weekend I got to see some friends I haven't seen in 5 years, I live really close to them now so I decided to get the connection back, and we had a pretty good time hanging out. So now I have 2 friends here, which is an improvement from the last city I was in because except for family I didn't know anyone there. 

Oh I moved rooms in my house, I have a nice double bed and a big room all to myself, which is really awesome.

So I caught a cold from the kids I work with. I've had a sore throat all day, and still do now, it's annoying the hell out of me. I really hope it gets healed and doesn't turn into some full fledged cold. 

I also cracked my tooth while I was in Switzerland and have been trying to get to the dentist to fix it since then, it doesn't hurt, but food always gets stuck in it but since I've moved to a new city I haven't found any good place and I am still looking as I would really like to get there already. But I guess I just need patience and to keep looking. 

Anyway I'll be going now, this was just a little update on my latest happenings. Bye

The 1975

I just found out about the band The 1975 recently, I think they are really good. I love these 2 songs from them. They are really amazing. Ok I don't know if anyone else will feel this way about them...but you should listen anyway.

DONE!

I finished my high school! Well I finished on the Saturday but I didn't get around to posting till now. I am super happy about it, I will never have to sit in front of a desk and study math, science or English unless I want to and that makes me really happy. I will only get my diploma in December as my school is in the Philippines and these stuff take time, so I'm actually not a high school graduate yet, but I'm still done and that's what counts. Oh and I took some pictures the other day, here's one. Bye for now.

-Nat  

Bern 2013

So I spent part of my summer vacation in Switzerland again and got to see Micha :) I had a super great time and it was real hard going home after that. Sorry I didn't upload the pictures earlier I was busy with work the last week. So here goes: 

 The national animal of Bern is the bear so they have bears in the center of the city and you will notice that there are a lot of bear related pictures and things. Bears are real cute so it's pretty cool.

 We did a lot of bbqs

 There's like 200 something steps on this tower, it was pretty fun climbing it.

 This is a drink that's really famous in Bern and possibly Switzerland, it's made from when the milk is changed into cheese, I liked it until I found out what it really was. I still drank it after, but the idea made it kind of gross. 

 August 1st is the National Day of Switzerland, and since I was there for it we met up with a bunch of Micha's relatives and set of fireworks, grilled and had a nice evening. 

 My first hockey game. It was actually pretty fun. 

 We did a sale, it was pretty fun, I couldn't help much as I don't speak German, so I helped with the arranging and packing of stuff. 

 This is on top of that tower with over 200 steps.

 We did a lot of hiking, it was tiring but nice. 

We did a lot more stuff but this is all I have pictures of. My trip to Switzerland was definitely the highlight of my summer. I have another 2 and a half weeks of holiday and I'm back to work. 

Netbook+Others

I got a Netbook! I'm super happy now I can finally get online properly. My old laptop had a million problems and was so slow I barely even used it anymore. This one arrived yesterday and it's working really well (obviously).
Other than that I smashed my finger on Sunday and it's still swollen and bruised and hurts a ton. It's making it really hard to write and that's a problem cuz I have to finish my school during vacation while I'm not working and this finger thing is slowing me down, but I'll make it.

New Job!

I haven't really been online much and as a result I haven't blogged for over a month. I've been really busy. I got the job I was really hoping for (I'm super happy about that) and I've been working for a month already. I moved out of Eger and everything in my life has been super different. I'm back here now since I have a 3 weeks break so getting some rest and catching up on my life. I'm pretty happy with the way things are. Of course with new experiences come both good and bad, it's a lot to get used to and I'm doing my best. So anyway I'm a kindergarten teacher now, and really enjoying my job. The kids are so cute, and I'm still getting used to handling all of them at once and keeping patient even when they are being difficult. I'm going to go to Switzerland super soon and I'm really excited, I hope everything works out according to plan and that I have a great time there. Well I'm really tired so I'm gonna go do something cuz I feel this post sounds super dull. Goodnight.

Dreamcatchers Part 4

Here are some of the latest dream catchers I have been making. I tried some new designs but my favorite will always be the simple ones :) 

Hope you liked them