Christmas-New Year

Merry belated Christmas and Happy almost New Year!

Feel Good

I believe life is an amazing thing, full of beauty.

Sometimes I feel so happy that I can't help but grinning real big even when I'm completely alone, making me feel like an idiot but I don't care and I feel amazing.

I wish life were always like that.

I know they say you have to have bad to appreciate the good.

But why this much bad?

I feel like I'm falling apart.

I wish I could feel better.

I wish the fact that I am this close to the end of the semester would be enough to keep me hopeful.
Sometimes I feel like I lost all hope.

I just wanna feel good, is that too much to ask?

8 Years

So as of November 16 (a few weeks back) I have had this blog for 8 years.

That is a REALLY long time.

I don't really have many other things from 8 years ago, as I have moved 6 times since, and one of those trips was cross continental.

I find it really great that I have managed to keep my blog updated at least monthly for this long. I would like to post more often, and I will try my best to do so.

Looking back over all my thoughts, feelings, and memories and seeing how much I have changed, grown, and just overall lived is really interesting.

Anyway, I think that's of enough flattering myself.

Have to get back to writing an essay for school.

-Nat

"I Jumped Off the Golden Gate Bridge"

I think this is a really powerful video and one everyone should see.

Last Yearrrr

I have officially started my (hopefully) last year of university.

So far it's been extremely stressful, and it will only get worse, but I'm determined to finish it and pass and write an amazing thesis.

I guess this whole thing seems pretty daunting but exciting, like I'm already thinking of after uni plans, and I'm kinda scared.

So that's a quick update on my life....

Bye

Holiday in Abruzzo, Rome + The Vatican

At the end of July I went to Italy for a week. 

I'll leave you with the pictures so you can see all the beautiful places I've been and the fun things I've done. 

Atri:

Pineto:

Where we spent all our days at the beach

Pescara:

Rome: 

 Pinsa

Vatican City:

 The Sistine Chapel

That's all for now... stay tuned

Relaxation

So I'm currently in Italy and having an amazing time. I completely forgot what it's like to enjoy myself without stressing about something I've forgotten.
I'll post more after my holiday.

Work

After a real difficult week I sat down to doodle while my students watched a movie, about half way through one of my students saw that I had put down the pencil and asked me if I was going to finish, I told him yes but I wasn't sure what to add, so he asked me if he could continue it. After saying yes 2 other students joined in.

I thought it was frikin adorable and I loved the end result because, I have never seen either of the 3 boys ever enjoy and art project before this.

I guess this was exactly what I needed to remind me how much I love my job.

Night

They say the darkest hour is just before dawn, but they never mention exactly which is the darkest hour or how many hours are in one 'night'.

I'm aching to know when it'll be over, this darkness is taking over my system and slowly driving me insane.

To quote Bilbo Baggins:

I fell thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.

Just give me a break already!

Exam Season

It's exam season once again
In the past 1.5 years exam season was the part of the semester I dreaded the most
This semester, however, was different
I had SO many essays to write during the year
That I think I will actually have a lot more time to rest now

I just need to pass these tests.....

Can hardly wait for summer!

Scars To Your Beautiful

So recently I have been obsessed with Rebeka Black and Kurt Schneider's cover of Scars To Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara.
I think Kurt is an amazing artist and I love listening to his covers. 90% of the time they are 'the perfect cover' and this one is no exception.

I'm gonna leave it here, check it out!

Me

We Are Broken

Do you think it's possible for a person to be broken?
I don't mean broken bones, broken in by life, or humbled, I mean broken the way a machine or a toy breaks and has to be taken to be repaired.
And what if you're too broken that you can't be fixed, or it wouldn't be worth to fix you because you'd break really soon anyway and it would just be best to discard you for a new person.
Discarding someone isn't hard, but what happens when you are the one that's broken and you've tried everything you can to fix yourself but is hasn't worked, what are you supposed to do then?
It's considered tragedy when a broken person gets rid of themselves, but what were the other options? 

Where we Belong

This speaks to me on so many levels, I guess it's all about perspective:

Maybe your country is only a place you make up in your own mind. Something you dream about and sing about. Maybe it's not a place on the map at all, but just a story full of people you meet and places you visit, full of books and films you've been to. I'm not afraid of being homesick and having no language to live in. I don't have to be like anyone else. I'm walking on the wall and nobody can stop me.
- Hugo Hamilton