Paolo Raeli

I really like this quote. Paolo Raeli is one of my favorite people to follow on instagram, his photography is so beautiful, and the captions under his pictures are pretty awesome also.

Thesis

 Last week I gave in my thesis. It was such an amazing feeling to be done writing it. Up to date this is the accomplishment I am the most proud of. Just curious what my grade is gonna be.
I'm gonna be mainstream and post some pictures of it:

Now gotta focus on my next to be biggest accomplishment, my university diploma. I'm so close!

Doing My Best

I'll try to keep this in mind

A Moveable Feast

A few weeks back I read the novel "A Moveable Feast" by Ernest Hemingway for uni. Since I started uni I rarely enjoy the novels I have to read, because I am just trying to finish them on time and hardly have time to read them. But "A Moveable Feast" is amazing! I completely recommend it to anyone who is interested in classical literature, especially literature of the Lost Generation. It's so beautiful and well written. I have become a huge fan of Hemingway and as soon as I have time am gonna read more of his novels, which I hope are as interesting as this one was.

The Dream

"Nothing can disturb your peace of mind unless you allow it to."
- Roy T. Bennett

I wish this were true
Or that I knew how to stop allowing it...

I Wanna Hold Your Hand

I can only recommend this version of the song.

Across the Universe is such a beautiful movie!

Christmas-New Year

Merry belated Christmas and Happy almost New Year!

Feel Good

I believe life is an amazing thing, full of beauty.

Sometimes I feel so happy that I can't help but grinning real big even when I'm completely alone, making me feel like an idiot but I don't care and I feel amazing.

I wish life were always like that.

I know they say you have to have bad to appreciate the good.

But why this much bad?

I feel like I'm falling apart.

I wish I could feel better.

I wish the fact that I am this close to the end of the semester would be enough to keep me hopeful.
Sometimes I feel like I lost all hope.

I just wanna feel good, is that too much to ask?

8 Years

So as of November 16 (a few weeks back) I have had this blog for 8 years.

That is a REALLY long time.

I don't really have many other things from 8 years ago, as I have moved 6 times since, and one of those trips was cross continental.

I find it really great that I have managed to keep my blog updated at least monthly for this long. I would like to post more often, and I will try my best to do so.

Looking back over all my thoughts, feelings, and memories and seeing how much I have changed, grown, and just overall lived is really interesting.

Anyway, I think that's of enough flattering myself.

Have to get back to writing an essay for school.

-Nat

"I Jumped Off the Golden Gate Bridge"

I think this is a really powerful video and one everyone should see.

Last Yearrrr

I have officially started my (hopefully) last year of university.

So far it's been extremely stressful, and it will only get worse, but I'm determined to finish it and pass and write an amazing thesis.

I guess this whole thing seems pretty daunting but exciting, like I'm already thinking of after uni plans, and I'm kinda scared.

So that's a quick update on my life....

Bye

Holiday in Abruzzo, Rome + The Vatican

At the end of July I went to Italy for a week. 

I'll leave you with the pictures so you can see all the beautiful places I've been and the fun things I've done. 

Atri:

Pineto:

Where we spent all our days at the beach

Pescara:

Rome: 

 Pinsa

Vatican City:

 The Sistine Chapel

That's all for now... stay tuned

Relaxation

So I'm currently in Italy and having an amazing time. I completely forgot what it's like to enjoy myself without stressing about something I've forgotten.
I'll post more after my holiday.

Work

After a real difficult week I sat down to doodle while my students watched a movie, about half way through one of my students saw that I had put down the pencil and asked me if I was going to finish, I told him yes but I wasn't sure what to add, so he asked me if he could continue it. After saying yes 2 other students joined in.

I thought it was frikin adorable and I loved the end result because, I have never seen either of the 3 boys ever enjoy and art project before this.

I guess this was exactly what I needed to remind me how much I love my job.

Night

They say the darkest hour is just before dawn, but they never mention exactly which is the darkest hour or how many hours are in one 'night'.

I'm aching to know when it'll be over, this darkness is taking over my system and slowly driving me insane.

To quote Bilbo Baggins:

I fell thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.

Just give me a break already!

Exam Season

It's exam season once again
In the past 1.5 years exam season was the part of the semester I dreaded the most
This semester, however, was different
I had SO many essays to write during the year
That I think I will actually have a lot more time to rest now

I just need to pass these tests.....

Can hardly wait for summer!

Scars To Your Beautiful

So recently I have been obsessed with Rebeka Black and Kurt Schneider's cover of Scars To Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara.
I think Kurt is an amazing artist and I love listening to his covers. 90% of the time they are 'the perfect cover' and this one is no exception.

I'm gonna leave it here, check it out!

Me

We Are Broken

Do you think it's possible for a person to be broken?
I don't mean broken bones, broken in by life, or humbled, I mean broken the way a machine or a toy breaks and has to be taken to be repaired.
And what if you're too broken that you can't be fixed, or it wouldn't be worth to fix you because you'd break really soon anyway and it would just be best to discard you for a new person.
Discarding someone isn't hard, but what happens when you are the one that's broken and you've tried everything you can to fix yourself but is hasn't worked, what are you supposed to do then?
It's considered tragedy when a broken person gets rid of themselves, but what were the other options? 

Where we Belong

This speaks to me on so many levels, I guess it's all about perspective:

Maybe your country is only a place you make up in your own mind. Something you dream about and sing about. Maybe it's not a place on the map at all, but just a story full of people you meet and places you visit, full of books and films you've been to. I'm not afraid of being homesick and having no language to live in. I don't have to be like anyone else. I'm walking on the wall and nobody can stop me.
- Hugo Hamilton

Christmas '16

Merry Christmas!

I'm hoping the next year will be better than this one!

Matters

You know how you are always told to follow your gut no matter what. But what happens when your gut is telling you something completely opposite to what your heart says and your head kinda gets stuck in the middle? Can your gut be wrong just because you always tend to believe the worst in every situation?
But what if it's right?
Ugh...

Slovenia

Before I started studying literature I didn't know too much about Ralph Waldo Emerson but I always loved his quotes. Now that I have to read some of his works I realized that his writing is so different from what I expected. Some of the things he says I completely disagree with, such as this:

Travelling is a fool's paradise. Our first journeys discover to us the indifference of places. At home I dream that at Naples, at Rome, I can be intoxicated with beauty, and lose my sadness. I pack my trunk, embrace my friends, embark on the sea, and at last wake up in Naples, and there beside me is the stern fact, the sad self, unrelenting, identical, that I fled from. I seek the Vatican, and the palaces. I affect to be intoxicated with sights and suggestions, but I am not intoxicated. My giant goes with me wherever I go.

 -Self-Reliance 

Maybe you do have the same problems you had no matter where you travel, but the sights you see make it well worth the trip. Speaking of travelling and trips here are pictures from my latest trip, last weekend, to Slovenia.

Ljubljana:

 tripple bridge

Bled, Bohinj and Savica:

The trip was really fun, and I really enjoyed seeing so many places. Lake Bled was one of the most beautiful lakes I have seen in my life. 

The next trip is already being planned... Can't wait!

Bye.