Exam Season

It's exam season once again
In the past 1.5 years exam season was the part of the semester I dreaded the most
This semester, however, was different
I had SO many essays to write during the year
That I think I will actually have a lot more time to rest now

I just need to pass these tests.....

Can hardly wait for summer!

Scars To Your Beautiful

So recently I have been obsessed with Rebeka Black and Kurt Schneider's cover of Scars To Your Beautiful by Alessia Cara.
I think Kurt is an amazing artist and I love listening to his covers. 90% of the time they are 'the perfect cover' and this one is no exception.

I'm gonna leave it here, check it out!

Me

We Are Broken

Do you think it's possible for a person to be broken?
I don't mean broken bones, broken in by life, or humbled, I mean broken the way a machine or a toy breaks and has to be taken to be repaired.
And what if you're too broken that you can't be fixed, or it wouldn't be worth to fix you because you'd break really soon anyway and it would just be best to discard you for a new person.
Discarding someone isn't hard, but what happens when you are the one that's broken and you've tried everything you can to fix yourself but is hasn't worked, what are you supposed to do then?
It's considered tragedy when a broken person gets rid of themselves, but what were the other options? 

Where we Belong

This speaks to me on so many levels, I guess it's all about perspective:

Maybe your country is only a place you make up in your own mind. Something you dream about and sing about. Maybe it's not a place on the map at all, but just a story full of people you meet and places you visit, full of books and films you've been to. I'm not afraid of being homesick and having no language to live in. I don't have to be like anyone else. I'm walking on the wall and nobody can stop me.
- Hugo Hamilton

Christmas '16

Merry Christmas!

I'm hoping the next year will be better than this one!

Matters

You know how you are always told to follow your gut no matter what. But what happens when your gut is telling you something completely opposite to what your heart says and your head kinda gets stuck in the middle? Can your gut be wrong just because you always tend to believe the worst in every situation?
But what if it's right?
Ugh...

Slovenia

Before I started studying literature I didn't know too much about Ralph Waldo Emerson but I always loved his quotes. Now that I have to read some of his works I realized that his writing is so different from what I expected. Some of the things he says I completely disagree with, such as this:

Travelling is a fool's paradise. Our first journeys discover to us the indifference of places. At home I dream that at Naples, at Rome, I can be intoxicated with beauty, and lose my sadness. I pack my trunk, embrace my friends, embark on the sea, and at last wake up in Naples, and there beside me is the stern fact, the sad self, unrelenting, identical, that I fled from. I seek the Vatican, and the palaces. I affect to be intoxicated with sights and suggestions, but I am not intoxicated. My giant goes with me wherever I go.

 -Self-Reliance 

Maybe you do have the same problems you had no matter where you travel, but the sights you see make it well worth the trip. Speaking of travelling and trips here are pictures from my latest trip, last weekend, to Slovenia.

Ljubljana:

 tripple bridge

Bled, Bohinj and Savica:

The trip was really fun, and I really enjoyed seeing so many places. Lake Bled was one of the most beautiful lakes I have seen in my life. 

The next trip is already being planned... Can't wait!

Bye.

I Hope You're Happy

Dear future me,
Are you reading this whilst you are happy?
God, I hope you're happy.
You've been through so much, are you even still around to read this?
God, I hope you are.
Pain is never easy, is it? Relationship breakdowns, heartache, emotional and mental trauma. Yes, they're the features of life.
But god, I hope you're leading a better life.
Is that constant pain still there? That one that hasn't seemed to have left your chest for so long?
God, I hope it's not.
Do you look in the mirror everyday, and like the person staring back? Are you confident?
God, I hope you are.
Do you cry a lot? Better yet, do you cry as much as you used to? And when you do cry, are they happy tears?
God, I hope they are.
Have you found someone to love you just as you love them? Do they treat you right?
God, I hope they're great.
Do you still write? If so, do you ever write about positivity?
God, I hope you do.
Are you still kind? Do you smile always?
God, I hope it's genuine.
Are you reading this whilst you're happy?
God, I hope you're happy.
- Maddison Loader

The Power Of Words

Normally I don't share these kinds of videos, but this one really touched me somehow.

Breakdown

I just wanna break...

away from my problems

from my university

from my jobs

from life giving me shit

maybe I'd be able to face things after?

Birthday Thoughts

It's been more than half a year since you left this earth and I still can't get used to the fact that you're gone. I wanted to call you today to wish you happy birthday and even though I knew it was impossible it still stuck in my mind. I would have visited your body but I'm far away. Someone once told me that when she misses her relatives who have gone off she sits and lights a candle because they can be with you even in your thoughts. I didn't have time to light a candle as I worked all day so I guess I'm just going to have to comfort myself with the fact that you are around and know how much I miss you. I hope you are happy up there. I love you!
-Nat

Eleutheromania

Me in one word 

Kiev

Last weekend we went to Kiev, Ukraine, for 3 days to sight see. It was a really fun weekend and Kiev was actually a lot prettier than I expected it to be. 

Airport picture 

Main square 

 Tribute to the people who died in the Revolution in 2014

 Dinamo Kijiv's stadium

It was a great trip, and I was really happy to go to a new country. I can't wait for the next one!

Sziget + Sum 41

Hungary is pretty well known for its many festivals during the summer, the most famous is the Sziget Festival. This year Sum 41 was playing and I got free ticket for that day. It has been my dream to see them, and, as I wrote a few years back, I even had a ticket to see them but the concert got cancelled. This year thankfully it didn't and I had one of the most amazing days ever.

horrible selfie to show how close I was

 at times Deryck got even closer

and Jason also

 we saw David Guetta also

 and Bloc Party

Some say we're never meant to grow up

I'm sure they never knew enough

I know the pressures won't go away

It's too late

-Some Say, Sum 41