Monday, February 18, 2019

Changes are Scary

I am the kind of person who meticulously plans my life, sometimes to a point of obsession, like how much money I can spend daily for a whole year, or exactly what day/month would x thing fit into my life in the distant future. However, just the other day I decided to get out of the work place I hate within the next month and try something completely different. First it made me feel at peace, that I'll finally be able to let go of the stress and anger that I feel every single day. But as the days are going by I am realizing this is not as easy as I thought it would be, this puts certain plans on hold. Things I have planned months in advance might all change with a job change, due to finances and responsibilities. So for the past 2 days, as I rewrote my whole CV I have been kind of freaking out. But hey, I'm trying to look at it as a positive step out of my comfort zone. In a way I'm really excited for what the future holds, and another part of me is terrified. I'm gonna do this though, and I'm gonna make the best out of whatever consequences it has on my life. I guess that's all I can do anyway.

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