Merry Christmas 2011

I know I'm kinda overdue on posting....forgive me I've been busy.

So these are one millionth of the pictures from our Christmas shows.

 Our Puppet Theatre

 Giving Gifts

 More gifts

Group shot

Anyway, I'm sure you guys were all super interested in that...lol..no but seriously it's fun doing stuff like that once a year...we did a ton of shows and won like almost 7,000 souls. :) It's pretty legit.

Other than that different things have been going on, some good some bad. Joel bought me a tub of ice cream for Christmas, so I guess whenever I feel sad or depressed I can just eat it, cuz ice cream is the most effective thing to make me happy. I think I should eat some now, but I don't wanna finish it all so fast. Also I wrote in a way earlier post that for a hobby I made a dreamcatcher, and anyway I started making more, and giving to people, and OMG so many people asked me to make for them. So I literally worked my ass of to make a bunch before Christmas for a ton of people. I still have about 4 more to make before I go to Manila (if it works out, which it has to). Also my dad is leaving soon if his visa works out (please pray it does). So anyway before he left he really wanted to see the tarsiers, so we went to see them.

 Some awesome place we found to eat 

We walked down and up like a million stairs (the ones on the picture is like one fourth of them) I was dead at the end!

Merry Christmas, yes I know it's the 26th, but I didn't make a Christmas post, so ya. I hope you guys all got awesome presents, I sure did :D Anyway I'm gonna go read, have to catch up with Joel in this book before he ruins the whole thing for me. Love you all. Oh ya and I know I've been asking for prayer a lot recently, but honestly I'm going through a ton of stuff, and sure I'm still happy, but my emotions are messed up, so prayers are appreciated. :) Thanks.

Thoughts, News, Wishes, and Pray for me....Please :)

Dear Blog,

Yes I know I should be in sleeping a long time ago, but sometimes staying awake is just easier and when I try to sleep so many thoughts run through my head that I don't want to think about that I would rather stay awake till I can't keep my eyes open anymore and then just crash. Things have been ok recently, I get depressed sometimes and then I'm happy at other times, and sometimes I don't know what I am. Like now, I am happy to be alive and breathing, but life is so mundane and routine and I'm always home and I miss some certain people a lot and it's really hard. Also I'm going to move back to Hungary....It's so weird, but in 3 months I'm going to move back to Europe...I missed it a lot, but I don't want to leave. Yes I do in a way, but it's really hard for me to leave the people here. But I guess it was my choice and I have to deal with the consequences...even if they hurt. Do you ever wish someone was there to just give you a hug? Like I just want someone to hold me really tight, squish me to them and hug me like I mean everything. Hardest part.....I know who exactly I want to hug me, and he's not here....damn it I really need patience. Which reminds me...I have a prayer request. I would really like to go to Manila beginning of January. You see I wanted to go for New Years but the plane tickets are really expensive now and beginning of January they will be cheaper. So pray that my visa's will all work out by then, and that I can get a really good deal, round-trip, flight..on the perfect date.Ok I think I have said enough for this post. Wishing you all a good day or night wherever you are.

New News

Ok so recently we took a trip around Bohol, now I don't know where to get many of the pictures so here are the ones I could find.

 We stayed at this really awesome resort place with the most beautiful pool ever, I swam like the whole time we were there...and got nice and tan

 with my daddy :P 

Well anyway that is all the pictures. Right now I'm sick, I've been in bed since Sunday and I really hope I'll get well soon. Right now it's raining super hard and I'm even getting rained on from my bed which is funny cuz that's kinda impossible. Can you pray I get healed really really soon! We started doing our puppet shows yesterday and unfortunately I feel like a lazy bum cuz I can't stay out of bed for longer than half an hour, I'm already super behind with my school and this is not helping me anything expect making me paranoid about all the wasted time. But like I feel completely clogged up inside and I really can't sit up for any period of time. Anyhow I bet no one is interested in my sickness and school life. I'm hoping to have a good Christmas this year and New Years (wish me luck I hope I can go to Manila for New Years). Don't have much more to say, there is a lot going on in my life, but sometimes you know I like to keep it to myself. I dono....so tc :)

Moved

Ok..Sorry about not posting in ages. I didn't forget about my blog, it's just we had this huge move to Bohol and then after that the internet isn't really working properly. It's like only at crazy times at night that it's normal. Bohol is a very different place to be. We have the bestt house and a tree house and the view from our house is totally legit.....I love it. Oh and my room is beautiful! heheh but like we live super far from town...we live up this mountain trail. Ya so far haven't mad any new friends, but we live close by the beach and I can hang with Joel, Sam and Meeky. I miss my friends in Manila.Anyhow I probably won't be able to regularly update due to internet problems, but I'll try to write here from time to time. Hope we work out something with the internet really soon. At least I have my phone....which is my very faithful companion and helps me keep in touch with Micha (the most awesomest boyfriend ever) and yaaa......I'm gonna sleep now..or just go and do something else. Goodnight. :)

Care

Hi Bloggie I'm back.....Well anyway I think things will get better, I'm not sure it will, but hope....I'm still hurting, cried a lot yesterday...and some today, don't really know how to deal with everything and then on top of it I'm leaving and it's all so messed up in my head. I am missing people a lot and then will miss more people super soon. I always leave...it's always me who leaves and leaves everyone behind, I always have to start a new, I've done it before...but it wasn't easy. It's hard for me to see people with their best friends, people really caring about everything about another persons emotions, I think that really hurts the worst. When I look at them and remember how it felt, I care about my friends emotions, but obviously not enough, I think I've closed myself of to the point of no return. When it got to much before I just took that part of me and shut it out. And now when I want to have it again, when I think I would finally be able to try again, it's gone, I don't know how to get it back. I care, but not enough, and then I don't even know if I should care as it's just going to make it harder for me. When I look back a few years and think of the person I used to be it's almost like I'm looking at someone else, the way I used to feel about things....I cared soo much that I would always get hurt by it, but my friends appreciated it, now I switched sides, people like me, I have friends and stuff, I'm not out on the sides anymore, but I don't know what I turned into...and the way people think of me..I don't even know what they think anymore. I know they used to like me, before...I'm not sure anymore. I wish I could just curl up in a small ball and sleep till everything is all better. I'm so tired, but I have so much to do, I have so much school, and then I have to help pack. Jesus please help me out right now. Ok well that's all. I really need some prayers sent my way. Love you guys....

Done It Again

Well I guess I did it again, hurt people by having fun. Always happens, I have no idea how to keep everyone happy....I think it's impossible, but others manage to do it so I'm just wandering if it's only something wrong with me? I keep on trying to make things good, try to go by what makes people happy, or more like just put their feelings into consideration but then I have one careless moment and I ruin everything. Problem is it's not a normal people situation where you deal with it and get over it, but I've got some great friends who like to remind me about it every time we talk. I don't know it's really hard right now.

Oh also it's supposed to be Sum 41's concert today, but it was cancelled, kinda sad, I really wanted to go...but ahhh, I had a good evening yesterday hanging with my friends.We're leaving super soon, probably 31st but not 100% yet...I'm super sad to be leaving everyone. In a way I'm glad I get to have a new experience in a new place, but I'm gonna miss people a lot, and I don't know how or when I'll make new friends. Hope it's soon. At least it's not so far so I can still visit once in a while.

I'm super tired now so I'm just gonna listen to music, chat, and maybe do some other stuff. Goodnight.

All Time Low and other random news

The All Time Low concert was AWESOME!!!
ok seriously....ya we were super far in the back but still it was beautiful.
This was their best song (Therapy). Ok first I didn't agree it was their best song, but then watching it again....omg seriously it was super...I dono can't even describe.


We lost all our videos and picture (fail!) but yaaa at least there is youtube right?
I lost my voice also...ahh everyone was telling me to be quiet cuz my talking sounded like an old man. but it was still fun anyway.

Super sad news I found out today...Sum41 cancelled their concert here, something about Dyrek's (the singer) medical condition :( I'm super sad right now......and I hope we get a full refund on the tickets. I'm gonna cry.

Oh and my dad came to visit me :) Well he came for many reasons, one was to visit me. He'll be staying for 3 months so I'm happy to have some family around.

Also there is a typhoon :( it's raining like crazy yesterday and today.....can't wait for it to be over I want the sun!!!! Almost everyone is having brown outs, thankfully we never lost the electricity, and I'm hoping we don't.

Just realized how random this post was. Like a mix of a whole bunch of happy and sad news...well that's what's been going on with my life lately. Also Lali sent me a kinder egg, super happy as I hadn't had one in years and I ate it like it was a prized possession (which it was).

Ok um....more news?

lets see...

Oh ya it's my mom's birthday today...

Happy Birthday Mother :)

and Joel is coming back from Switzerland in a week.

I think that's about it...I'll add if I can think of anything else....

see ya

Nat

Chris Drew = Plain Awesome

Sweet.....I don't know why I posted it, I just saw it and wanted someone else to see it and then I was gonna post it on facebook, but I think I post to much Chris Drew stuff on facebook. 

Hehe sometimes I can't help myself :)

Enjoy....and if you don't already, then listen to his music. His band is NeverShoutNever! Youtube him!

Invisible--Skylar Grey

I super LOVE this song. Listen to it.

Dreamcatcher

Well I have been trying to be more creative these days....and also update my blog more. You see I was super addicted to tumblr and it was having strange effects on me, so I am quitting till Monday...I haven't gone on it since Saturday and miss it really bad. But I guess it's good for me. I don't know if I'll be able to make it as I already feel left behind on things..but ahh ok.

I made a dream catcher, finished it yesterday and hung it up (ok normally you are supposed to hang it by a window but I hung mine by the door) It didn't really work though as I had the most retarded dream last night but at least it looks pretty (just letting you know I didn't expect it to work).

It's not like professional or anything but I like it. :) Going to make more just don't have different color thread then purple so it'll have to wait a while. 

Random pic of Monday night:

What Makes You Beautiful/If It Means A Lot To You!

I really, really like this song, they are kinda boy bandish, especially the video, but ahhhhhh.....watch it!

and this song is just beautiful...I love the band!

Thomas, Hold It Against Me

I super love this video. It's Thomas from Before You Exit doing a drum cover to Hold it against me, by Britney Spears. I especially love his smile when they randomly play Baby in the middle.

You miss a lot if you don't watch it (lol everyone is going to think I'm lame but I don't care I love Thomas)
bye for now, I'm late for something just cuz I needed to put this up.

Cracked Phone

I like :)

Ok wanna know the tragic news of what happened to my phone? If you know me you wouldn't be surprised cuz I always break stuff....dum dum da dum....

 ok you weren't really supposed to see my reflection in the phone but nevermind. 

Ya..I bet you are curious as to how it happened right? Ok so I was being foolish and ya it fell in the basketball court at the park and ya....it was dark so it took me a while to find it but when I did it was cracked. Sad story, I always think my phone is so squatter now :( well I guess lesson learned I'm gonna have to live with this phone for a while until I find a way to get a new one....

Sum 41, All Time Low

I decided I'm gonna start updating my blog more often, I bet no one even views it anymore cuz I don't ever post. Lets see...recent happenings, hm...my skateboard broke, (well one of the tracks) so I'm working on fixing it and in the meanwhile I borrowed a friends skateboard :D

Oh and awesome news, I have tickets to All Time Lows concert, and I'm gonna get my ticket to Sum 41 concert today, best ever!!!
I can't wait, All Time Low is gonna be September 22
and Sum 41 is October 16 :)

My life is just too awesome deal with it cunts ;;)

see ya

Smother Me

I love this song sooo much <3 I thought I posted it before, but I didn't find it. It's just so sweet, and the pictures in this video are so nice..... I have no idea how to describe how awesome this song is....just listen to it

Ron+ice-cream=Happiness

Rupert Grint giving out free ice-cream...ok seriously what more could you want??? I am already attracted to both ice-cream and Ron in themselves, but mix them, and FREE ice-cream.....DIE! hehe, I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2 a second time yesterday in the cinema for Zella's birthday. You can never get bored of Ron :) :) :)

Oh and side note, I did planking yesterday! that is not a good thing, well I did only once, and for a picture..Maybe I'll post it when I get it. For those of you who don't know what planking is here:

Rizal Camp 2011

Here are some random pictures from the camp. I just saved a bunch and gonna post them here so u can get some kind of a clue how the camp was. Anyway enjoy! 

 Everyone wanted to play volleyball, I sat on the side and watched

 Our hike, random group shot, (I was behind but I stopped walking cuz i didn't wanna be seen in the pic) 

 coke, we got totally soaked on the mountain (notice me in the back :P) 

 dressing up like pirates...the make-up part

 my sexy friend Johanna :) 

 up on top of the mountain....I was sooo cold! 

 volleyball again

 on top of the waterfall, I didn't wanna jump, just sat up there.

 word class

 my awesome cabin :) --I'm like a misfit, cuz I didn't dress like a pirate, was to busy helping the others get ready

 bowling, our room captain made us do really weird things (notice she in on her knees)

 being the make-up artist for everyone to be pirates

 inspiration time

 hehe it was so hard to convince her to jump

 they tied our hands together for lunch...excuse the face 

 bowling on my knees

 getting ready for the pirate thingie

 waterfall

 our hike, our car broke down so we had to walk for a while while all the guys were in the jeepney

 my awesome cabin and Jessica

 top of the mountain again

 hiking

 more hiking

 cabin shot

lol I look so mermaid like :)) 

Ok that's all, if you wanna see more camp pix here u go. 

http://www.facebook.com/pages/RRC-Expat-Summer-Camps/144296368915295

enjoy. I had an awesome week and wish I could go back again but yaaa...every good thing has an end. tata for now :)