Bye-bye 2020

 A little recap done right. 

Candy Crush

 Okay, this is amazing!

"Old Pain"

I'm not sure if I'd really consider this a toxic trait. I just think it means I haven't completely moved on from some of the events that happened in my life. I know forgiving/forgetting are healthy things, but sometimes by doing that it doesn't do the crime justice. Maybe it's good to feel pain with some memories, as it reminds me that I should never trust blindly. Kind of like a safeguard. I really don't know what is the right and wrong thing to feel when looking back at painful memories, but somehow I still can't see it as toxic. 

Big City Dreams

I've officially been in Spain for two months. I love being so far away from everyone and everything. Of course, I really miss people back and home, and some things also, but the positives definitely outweigh the negatives. 

I guess in a sense I'm fulfiling my "Big City Dreams"

Sunset

It's funny, from all the people I know, I'm the only one who doesn't have a problem with getting older. I remember people turning 18, 21, 25, etc and feeling so sad, and for some reason I could never relate. I always thought the world had so much to offer, and every year just had so much opportunity. Every year I got closer to completing my list of goals. Somehow life always throws me setbacks, and while I get really sad at those moments, things have always worked out so far. I'm stronger than most people I knew due to those setbacks, and I know that I'm able to accomplish anything I set my mind to. 

My current goals are to learn Spanish, enjoy my time here, get to know my Spanish relatives, get my braces off, make my relationship work long distance, and figure out what I want to do in the future...I had more, but they were postponed due to the virus, but I'm trying hard to stay positive, even when things get tough. I can do this! 

-Nat

España

I have finally done it!

I made it to Spain after much delays and a lot of waiting!

I arrived Sunday, August 23rd. 

A lot of things are not what I wished for.

I can't travel around too much as it's dangerous with this virus.

But I'm so happy I made it!

Incredibly,

I have wanted this for SO long.

 But the waiting was worth it, and I love it here.

My home for the next 9 months. ❤

Ibiza

 

❤

Thinking of you

Okay, I've probably posted this song like 10 years ago, but this is just too beautiful. Made me miss playing guitar and Katy Perry's old music. ♡

We Are Warriors

Funnily it's always around this time of year (this year and last) that I post an Avril song which I think has a really powerful message needed for me at the time.
*Note they show a scene of Budapest in the clip!!!*

Weird Times!

These are such strange times, this month I had to do things I have never done or thought I'd do in my life:

-I crossed the border from Liechtenstein to Austria on foot as there are no trains or buses crossing the   border. 

-By reentering Hungary, I placed my self under house arrest for 2 weeks (more like mandatory   quarantine), where I could't leave, even to go to the shop, and had to be brought everything. 

-I survived 2 full weeks in what was practically solitary confinement (with internet, so I could talk to   people, which really helped).   

-I wore a mask to go on a walk and to the shop in my own country

I'm sure millions of people have said that if they were told 3 months ago that the world would be like this they would never have believed it. I can't wait for this virus to eradicate itself from the world and for my life to get back on track. At the end of the day this is somehow another crazy adventure that I'll be able to add to my autobiography when I finally set my mind to writing it. One thing I can say for sure if that my life has not been boring. 

I'm just hoping this will end sooner rather than later. 

Dancing in the Sky

Dear brother
I wanted to post a song for you today as it's been one year since you're gone. I had a few ideas, but then I came across this song. I know you'd probably hate it as it isn't your style, but the lyrics perfectly describe what I wish for you up there. Love you!

-Nat

Coronavirus

Dear Blog,

I'm sure I'm not the only one who's life this virus messed with. What I do know is I am definitely one of the people who can't complain.

On March 13th I was supposed to fly to Spain, I was so excited, my dream was finally coming true. Then as the time got closer I started to worry, but I figured if I'd get into the country I'd be okay regardless of what happened next. Boy was I wrong. On March 12th I packed my suitcase. I'll be honest, I was a little scared about what would happen once I entered Valencia, but I pushed the feeling down and told myself "it'll be okay, I just have to get there, everything else will work out, it always does." After I was about 95% packed I decided to leave the rest of the stuff for the next day, and chose that moment to check my email. Surprise, surprise, I had an email from the place I was going to work in Spain telling me the project was indefinitely postponed and to cancel my plane ticket. Yay me!

The next day Spain was put under stay in the house quarantine and which I was glad I didn't go there to be locked in a house, I was lost as to what to do. I didn't have to wait long, and long story short, I'm back in Switzerland. I'm supposed to be here for 3.5 weeks, but considering the borders of both the countries closed behind me, I may end up being stuck here for longer.

I can't complain though, I have it a lot better than other people. We go out into nature a lot, which is so beautiful, and makes having to keep 2 meters away from everyone super easy. I hope I can go back to Hungary, my family and the boyfriend after the 3.5 weeks, but I guess we'll see.

I guess I'm again waiting in this beautiful place.

-Nat

Salt - B. Miles

Give Me Good Music

Is it just me, or has good music stopped being produced? When I was in my teen years I always found such amazing bands, and songs that were so beautiful that I'd listen to them on repeat for hours. In the last 2-3 years, though, I really haven't found much good music around. I think the only amazing album I've heard in these years as been Manchester Orchestra's latest album (A Black Mile To The Surface) in 2017. I really miss good music...
So yeah, just getting this out there.

-Nat

2020!

This is all I ask for from this year. 

And no more deaths.

Wishing this to everyone!