"Normal"

Life is strange sometimes. 

I really thought I had turned a page on so many issues I had. Yet here I am sitting on my couch in 2021 facing the same problems I struggled with in 2018 but thought were over after that. 

I wish I could just be "normal".

I don't know if I should keep fighting to be or I should just accept that there is no cure to being this messed up. 

I wish I had some answers.