New Dreamcatchers

Guess I don't really have to say much, just working my ass off to make a bunch of dreamcatchers 

This one is real big, I should have taken a picture with it so you can see properly. But for now that's what you'll get to see....

This is all for now, making more, maybe post them sometime. bye

Randomest Post

Well I see blogspot has changed the way it looks....Ok that's new. But at least it proves it's not an old dinosaur program which no one uses.
Ok sorry about not having posted in ages, been busy a lot, I also just got back from Manila 2 days ago. Wanna go back, I miss people there. It was a real interesting experience.
Sometimes I wonder how people can still like you when you cause so much drama and are so sensitive?

Eeee...this post is really really random, I've lost like any inspiration for writing, like not cuz I don't want to, just like I'm stressed out. But I shall try.

Yep randomness post.
Bye

Wow

A doctor entered the hospital in hurry after being called in for an urgent surgery. He answered the call ASAP, changed his clothes and went directly to the surgery block. 
He found the boy’s father waiting in the hall. Once seeing him, the dad yelled: “Why did you take all this time to come? Don’t you know that my son’s life is in danger? Don’t you have the sense of responsibility?”

The doctor smiled and said: “I am sorry, I wasn’t in the hospital and I came as fast as I could after receiving the call…… And now, I wish you’d calm down so that I can do my work.”

“Calm down? What if your son was in this room right now, would you calm down? If your own son died, what would you do?” said the father angrily.

The doctor smiled again and replied: “I will say what Job said in the Holy Bible, “From dust we came and to dust we return, blessed be the name of God.” Doctors cannot prolong lives. Go and intercede for your son, we will do our best by God’s grace.”

“Giving advice when not concerned is so easy,” murmured the father.

The surgery took many hours, after which the doctor went out happily, “Thank God! Your son is saved!” And without waiting for the father’s reply he carried on his way, running. “If you have any questions, ask the nurse!!”

“Why is he so arrogant? He couldn’t wait so I could ask about my son’s state?” the father questioned the nurse.

The nurse answered, tears coming down her face: “His son died yesterday in an accident, he was at the burial when we called him for your son’s surgery. And now that he saved your son’s life, he left running to finish his son’s burial.”

NEVER JUDGE ANYONE because you never know how their life is, what is happening, or what they are going through.

Somebody That I Used To Know

Watch this video. Not only is the guitar super legit, but I love the song. They did a really good job at covering it =)

Through The Storm

I can't promise to spare you from the storms of life, but I can promise to be with you through them. My help comes in a variety of forms. It may not always come in the form you expect, but it will come. I will never leave you to struggle on your own.

When you ask for My help, I will answer your prayer. When you are fearful, I will give you faith to trust Me, peace of mind, and courage to go on. When you are weak and weary, lean on Me and I will give you strength like you've never known. When your heart is broken, I will mend it.

I can't keep you from all hardships and sorrows, but I can make the troubles of life bearable and bring about good in the end. I can help your spirit rise above the storms of life. Above the clouds—up here in heavenly places with Me—the sun is always shining. I am sunshine on a rainy day, the rainbow after the storm. I am the bright ray of hope that puts the sparkle back in your eyes.

The present storm will pass. In the meantime, let Me keep you through the storm.

Updates

Ok very sexy....yes I was talking about my face. So a lot of things have been going on with my life. Micha came for a visit, doing school, STEPS, eating, sleeping. Was sick for a bit, did some stuff which was really stupid....yaaa happens to me a lot. Joel is in Thailand---jealous---he'll be back soon. Trying to press in with school. Sometimes it's hard to concentrate on stuff when you have a lot on your mind. Especially when the stuff you have to do is really boring! I'm pretty happy....well good happy. Like not overly but not dying of depression either. I'm not sure what to write about. Like I have a ton to say but nothing I wanna write up here so I'll leave you with this. Ok Bye. :)

Hello Blog.
Ok I haven't been posting half as much as I wanted to. I don't have a computer to use anymore. So I always have to borrow and a lot of times I don't get much time online. Things have been going ok lately. Some things were just great, others not the best. But all in all I'm happy. Got to go to Manila and Micha will come here next month...I realized I'm a really lucky person and even though I don't have the perfect life it's perfectly ok for me. :)  I've been doing a lot of dreamcatchers and I feel like a grandma already....but they turn out real pretty so it's worth the old feeling. It's my birthday in less then a week. I still can't believe I'm turning 18. Haven't seen most my family since March 2011 so soon it'll be a year. So weird..I still remember when I was a kid and was jealous of people who didn't live with their families or who could go out alone. And now it's like I have that and it isn't as 'cool' as it looks when you're 10. hehe. Ok just realized this post was kinda useless. Meeky started teaching me Spanish...and listen to Shakira's Spanish music. It's the best :)

I love this song
I wanted to post some pictures. but this internet is like the most wonderful thing on earth and thinks this is enough of a post. maybe another time.
Tc bloggie...and I really hope I get a computer back soon

Story

Married or not you should read this...

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

 — 

Dreamcatcher Collection

Here are some of the dreamcatchers I have made, I made a lot more but I gave them away already so I didn't get to take pictures. So basically first it started out as a hobby, and I did it just for fun then my friends all started asking so I made for them and my family and my second family here, and then people started buying from me as they wanted them for presents to friends and such. So hehe now I am in business. I do it more for fun and because I love the results but it's nice to see some hobby actually paying of and getting some money :) 

That's it for now, I decided from now on I'll take pictures of the ones I make and post them here so if people ask to see them I don't always need live samples. Hope you like them.....

--Nat

Everything Will Be Ok---It Always Is

Sometimes in life stuff happen which freak you out. People close to you can tell something is on your mind but when they ask you, you choose to lie and tell them everything is ok. Sometimes things freak you out, certain possibilities and roads that life might take you down, and you wish you didn't have to go down them, you wish that you could have been more careful before with your decisions and not gotten yourself on that path. But now that you are there there's not turning back. There are times in life when you think something, maybe it isn't true, maybe it is. but that little nagging voice at the back of your head freaks you out. Right now I'm in one of those situations, and I need it not to be true or I have no idea what to do. Yes I'm probably over-reacting, but I'm super scared. super super scared. I need something to get my mind of things, and that one person who I thought I could always rely on, well maybe not...people need distance, everyone needs there space, even me, but I guess I just set my priorities differently. So great be that way....I mean I guess someone always ends up getting hurt, and I can take it, but I'm gonna die when I hurt someone else, especially if they mean a lot to me. Sorry most of this doesn't make sense and is stupid rambling.................I just needed to get it down somewhere. A lot has been happening lately, I haven't been feeling so well. We are having problems at the house, spiritual, and also problems like power cuts...I guess it's just a stage, a test to see how long I can survive, and be positive, I want to be...or more like I have to be. Well anyway the bad things in life will pass...they always do. And maybe this one won't, and it includes to really painful things, but maybe it's all fake worries so I'll just be content and happy for now...or try to be. Everything will be ok.

My Bucket List

Before I die I would like to:

 I went to his concert but ya...meet him

 Rupert Grints icecream truck <3

 not date....get with...or wtv u wanna call it

 she was just in Manila 2 days ago, and I missed her :(

 this.....

Stuff I've done already

 super freeky

 well I did 5 years not 10

 well I didn't meet them, but saw them live

 kinda fail

 a few

 the best