December 26

Some random trip we took before my dad left, I think it was December 26. We went to see the sea weed production and this island, it was pretty cool.

 sea weed

 got some stuff stuck on my feet, it was super sticky and annoying

 sacks of sea weed

 Joel and Sam got....inspired....by the sand

 hehe...Joel and Sam again

 this is the life! 

 the lolo's (Filipino for grandfathers)

Ok those are most of the pictures, the rest are just the same style stuffs.....I haven't been to the beach since then :( I miss swimming!! Ok guys I'm working on making a big dreamcatcher..and I will finish this weekend or by Monday-Tuesday latest..I will post pics when I'm done, be prepared for the awesomeness of it. Wish me luck, I'm gonna go out in a bit to buy stuff for it, and if I can't get what I need then the finishing will be delayed..so yaaa....wanna see a picture of my room, it's not finished being decorated, but it's pretty legit so far:

lame...ok but you still like it :D

We Found Love

I love this song and the video for it, yes I know it's been out for a while, but I only heard it recently...and seriously in love...hehehe don't make fun of me :D

This Story Is Really Sweet

My best friend texted me, he asked if I looked nice right now. I told him no, and he said to get ready so I look good, not to him, but to myself. Only text him back If I felt happy with how I looked. This confused me but I didn't ask questions. I just got ready, and finally after an hour or two, I told him I felt happy with how I looked, sort of. The door rang about 10 minutes later, and my friends told me to come with them to the park. This confused me but I didn't ask questions, I was bored anyways. We walked to the park, it wasn't that far, and they said to sit on the swing set. I didn't really like the swings at this park because it was the very place my first love broke up with me & shattered my heart. Just sitting on the swing hurt a bit, I went into silence at the memories. Suddenly, I was blindfolded. When my friends took it off, there he was. The boy who told me to get ready, I liked this boy, he was my best friend. He handed me a rose and got down on his knee. "I know this is one of your least favorite places. I also know you stopped believing in love after 2 shots to the chest. And you don't like change. But this is good change, I think. I want to change this swingset from the place where you closed your door to love to the place where it just began. I've sat by & watched you get hurt long enough. You're beautiful, smart, talented, sweet, funny. And impatient. So, I won't drag this out. I love you, & I'd like to be your boyfriend...Will you go out with me?" This boy was my 3rd love, he made me feel special. It's been 5 long years, and just today, he said those exact words. To propose.

Jesus vs. Religion

I bet everyone has seen this, but still it's pretty good =)

Visit To Manila

Got back from Manila today, in a way it's nice to have my bed back and I needed to start school again...but I really wanna move back to Manila. Not cuz I don't like people here, but I personally don't think I'm meant for province life. Ok well I'm moving to Hungary....but Manila--sob :( We only took pics of yesterday when we hung out, it's 10:19pm and I haven't slept since 11:00am yesterday, well only 1 hour, so I'm obviously dead and will sleep after this post. Here are some pictures:

 Only picture I have with Micha, I really miss him :(

 this random abandoned house we like to hang at, and it's soo cute how Zella is so scared of it

 <3

 after everyone left, midnight snacking...well it was our dinner

and now I'm back in Bohol, I hope I can survive missing people..but even more I hope I can go back sometime really soon. All in all I'm really happy and thankful to everyone and everything that made me going and staying in Manila possible. And for David and Joel who went to immigration with me to do my visa even though they had to wait hours doing nothing. I appreciate it. ----ya sounds like a book dedication but who cares

--Love you

-Nat

Candle Light

I don't actually know why, but I felt like posting this picture, sure you can't see my face..but nvm. The Candle Light service we had this year was real nice :)

Going to Manila tomorrow :) :) :)

Da di da....I'm kinda freaking out about my visa and stuff..wish me luck

bu-byeeee

Happy 2012!

Happy New Year Everyone! So many weird things have happened in 2011 and all in all I can say it was a good year. Yes sure I got depressed, did things I really regret (probably more than any other year in my life). But all the good things that happened outweigh the bad. Learned so much and met some really awesome people, plus got really close to my friends I had. and then worst part I left them. And I'm super happy cuz I'm gonna see them all next week :D but in March I'll move back to Hungary and either not see them for a very long time or forever :( but anyway don't wanna think about the negative right now. I realized that my blog is the only place I can write stuff and be as cheesy as I want and not care :)
Ok now that was of topic, but all in all last year was worth living through....

 Now 2012, please be good to me..... So part of my New Years resolutions was to be positive and thankful for things more in my life. Last year it was to be happy, and you know even though not right away I think I really did learn to be happy no matter what. And I'm hoping I can stay that way for the rest of my life. So now it's be positive and thankful. I have a feeling it's gonna be tough, as living in Hungary and leaving my friends behind isn't exactly my ideal life. But you know I'll be with my family again, and I do miss them a whole lot...and ya I guess I should be open minded and think that I can make friends there. So yep, enough blabbing...wanna see some pics? :D

Opening Christmas presents

Meeky bought all the guys boxers :P

giving gifts

the kids we did the puppet show for

Joel and me wannabe fighting 

New Years 'family' shot

Merry Christmas 2011

I know I'm kinda overdue on posting....forgive me I've been busy.

So these are one millionth of the pictures from our Christmas shows.

 Our Puppet Theatre

 Giving Gifts

 More gifts

Group shot

Anyway, I'm sure you guys were all super interested in that...lol..no but seriously it's fun doing stuff like that once a year...we did a ton of shows and won like almost 7,000 souls. :) It's pretty legit.

Other than that different things have been going on, some good some bad. Joel bought me a tub of ice cream for Christmas, so I guess whenever I feel sad or depressed I can just eat it, cuz ice cream is the most effective thing to make me happy. I think I should eat some now, but I don't wanna finish it all so fast. Also I wrote in a way earlier post that for a hobby I made a dreamcatcher, and anyway I started making more, and giving to people, and OMG so many people asked me to make for them. So I literally worked my ass of to make a bunch before Christmas for a ton of people. I still have about 4 more to make before I go to Manila (if it works out, which it has to). Also my dad is leaving soon if his visa works out (please pray it does). So anyway before he left he really wanted to see the tarsiers, so we went to see them.

 Some awesome place we found to eat 

We walked down and up like a million stairs (the ones on the picture is like one fourth of them) I was dead at the end!

Merry Christmas, yes I know it's the 26th, but I didn't make a Christmas post, so ya. I hope you guys all got awesome presents, I sure did :D Anyway I'm gonna go read, have to catch up with Joel in this book before he ruins the whole thing for me. Love you all. Oh ya and I know I've been asking for prayer a lot recently, but honestly I'm going through a ton of stuff, and sure I'm still happy, but my emotions are messed up, so prayers are appreciated. :) Thanks.

Thoughts, News, Wishes, and Pray for me....Please :)

Dear Blog,

Yes I know I should be in sleeping a long time ago, but sometimes staying awake is just easier and when I try to sleep so many thoughts run through my head that I don't want to think about that I would rather stay awake till I can't keep my eyes open anymore and then just crash. Things have been ok recently, I get depressed sometimes and then I'm happy at other times, and sometimes I don't know what I am. Like now, I am happy to be alive and breathing, but life is so mundane and routine and I'm always home and I miss some certain people a lot and it's really hard. Also I'm going to move back to Hungary....It's so weird, but in 3 months I'm going to move back to Europe...I missed it a lot, but I don't want to leave. Yes I do in a way, but it's really hard for me to leave the people here. But I guess it was my choice and I have to deal with the consequences...even if they hurt. Do you ever wish someone was there to just give you a hug? Like I just want someone to hold me really tight, squish me to them and hug me like I mean everything. Hardest part.....I know who exactly I want to hug me, and he's not here....damn it I really need patience. Which reminds me...I have a prayer request. I would really like to go to Manila beginning of January. You see I wanted to go for New Years but the plane tickets are really expensive now and beginning of January they will be cheaper. So pray that my visa's will all work out by then, and that I can get a really good deal, round-trip, flight..on the perfect date.Ok I think I have said enough for this post. Wishing you all a good day or night wherever you are.

New News

Ok so recently we took a trip around Bohol, now I don't know where to get many of the pictures so here are the ones I could find.

 We stayed at this really awesome resort place with the most beautiful pool ever, I swam like the whole time we were there...and got nice and tan

 with my daddy :P 

Well anyway that is all the pictures. Right now I'm sick, I've been in bed since Sunday and I really hope I'll get well soon. Right now it's raining super hard and I'm even getting rained on from my bed which is funny cuz that's kinda impossible. Can you pray I get healed really really soon! We started doing our puppet shows yesterday and unfortunately I feel like a lazy bum cuz I can't stay out of bed for longer than half an hour, I'm already super behind with my school and this is not helping me anything expect making me paranoid about all the wasted time. But like I feel completely clogged up inside and I really can't sit up for any period of time. Anyhow I bet no one is interested in my sickness and school life. I'm hoping to have a good Christmas this year and New Years (wish me luck I hope I can go to Manila for New Years). Don't have much more to say, there is a lot going on in my life, but sometimes you know I like to keep it to myself. I dono....so tc :)

Moved

Ok..Sorry about not posting in ages. I didn't forget about my blog, it's just we had this huge move to Bohol and then after that the internet isn't really working properly. It's like only at crazy times at night that it's normal. Bohol is a very different place to be. We have the bestt house and a tree house and the view from our house is totally legit.....I love it. Oh and my room is beautiful! heheh but like we live super far from town...we live up this mountain trail. Ya so far haven't mad any new friends, but we live close by the beach and I can hang with Joel, Sam and Meeky. I miss my friends in Manila.Anyhow I probably won't be able to regularly update due to internet problems, but I'll try to write here from time to time. Hope we work out something with the internet really soon. At least I have my phone....which is my very faithful companion and helps me keep in touch with Micha (the most awesomest boyfriend ever) and yaaa......I'm gonna sleep now..or just go and do something else. Goodnight. :)

Care

Hi Bloggie I'm back.....Well anyway I think things will get better, I'm not sure it will, but hope....I'm still hurting, cried a lot yesterday...and some today, don't really know how to deal with everything and then on top of it I'm leaving and it's all so messed up in my head. I am missing people a lot and then will miss more people super soon. I always leave...it's always me who leaves and leaves everyone behind, I always have to start a new, I've done it before...but it wasn't easy. It's hard for me to see people with their best friends, people really caring about everything about another persons emotions, I think that really hurts the worst. When I look at them and remember how it felt, I care about my friends emotions, but obviously not enough, I think I've closed myself of to the point of no return. When it got to much before I just took that part of me and shut it out. And now when I want to have it again, when I think I would finally be able to try again, it's gone, I don't know how to get it back. I care, but not enough, and then I don't even know if I should care as it's just going to make it harder for me. When I look back a few years and think of the person I used to be it's almost like I'm looking at someone else, the way I used to feel about things....I cared soo much that I would always get hurt by it, but my friends appreciated it, now I switched sides, people like me, I have friends and stuff, I'm not out on the sides anymore, but I don't know what I turned into...and the way people think of me..I don't even know what they think anymore. I know they used to like me, before...I'm not sure anymore. I wish I could just curl up in a small ball and sleep till everything is all better. I'm so tired, but I have so much to do, I have so much school, and then I have to help pack. Jesus please help me out right now. Ok well that's all. I really need some prayers sent my way. Love you guys....

Done It Again

Well I guess I did it again, hurt people by having fun. Always happens, I have no idea how to keep everyone happy....I think it's impossible, but others manage to do it so I'm just wandering if it's only something wrong with me? I keep on trying to make things good, try to go by what makes people happy, or more like just put their feelings into consideration but then I have one careless moment and I ruin everything. Problem is it's not a normal people situation where you deal with it and get over it, but I've got some great friends who like to remind me about it every time we talk. I don't know it's really hard right now.

Oh also it's supposed to be Sum 41's concert today, but it was cancelled, kinda sad, I really wanted to go...but ahhh, I had a good evening yesterday hanging with my friends.We're leaving super soon, probably 31st but not 100% yet...I'm super sad to be leaving everyone. In a way I'm glad I get to have a new experience in a new place, but I'm gonna miss people a lot, and I don't know how or when I'll make new friends. Hope it's soon. At least it's not so far so I can still visit once in a while.

I'm super tired now so I'm just gonna listen to music, chat, and maybe do some other stuff. Goodnight.